I'm getting tired but i don't want to sleep. I feel like i'm always resisting my own needs. Always? Always is a bad word. The word you use when you are quarrelling and trying to twist some facts.
I've been reading - though not those very substance-ish book, but reading is good. Somehow reading my romantic novels get me to realise how much i enjoyed being with him and how appreciative i should be. Like i said, the anniversary is coming but i have a feeling that it wouldn't be as special as i thought, or we thought. Curse all the work, his school and driving, but life doesn't stop for that one special day.
I have been wondering, does everyone gets that butterflies in the stomach feeling every time they date someone new? I always do. And every brief contact we made, thousand of little cells seems to be flying around in my body. The power of dating. Haha. Such moments are short-lived but very memorable.